Angel on the MTA | Nashville

I’ll never forget that day… and that strange ride on the MTA!

“Do you believe in angels, Mom?” I remember my son Mike’s long-ago question as if it was yesterday. He was at an age that can often weary a young mother, and my fairly preoccupied response to my little boy’s question was a decided “No!”

Personally, I had never seen an angel, and had long-since placed the possibility of such a creature alongside Santa Claus and other childhood tales!

It would be a long time before I’d read a Bible and a verse that says, “Do not forget to entertain strangers, for by so doing some have unwittingly entertained ANGELS.”1

It was the summer of 1984… months since the Lord had broken into my misery at a large Nashville church. Carrying a huge chip on my shoulder, I had gone there at what seemed the bottom of my life, arrogantly challenging Him to “show” Himself. The Bible says, “Seek and you will find.” 2 I should have been squashed like a bug on a windshield, but was stunned, to say the LEAST, when the Lord spoke right out loud to me. My stony heart crumbled!

My living situation would not be quick to change then, but my perspective on almost everything else had instantly and miraculously flip-flopped. By now, I was sure I wouldn’t be at all surprised to meet up with a real live ANGEL.

But THIS one would definitely be a surprise!

The alarm clock startled me at 5:30 that morning. It seemed only minutes before I had finally fallen asleep after a rough night of coughing and sneezing. A quick swipe at the frosted bedroom window with a rumpled tissue told me that at least it had stopped raining. But something was wrong—more wrong than the fact of this monster head cold!

Most days now, I woke with a deep inner peace and assurance that God’s mercies are new every morning.3 I had kept a positive outlook that, “Surely this will be the day I find a job!” But this morning was different.

Still hoping for a car, I had been job hunting by way of the Nashville Metro Transit Authority (the “MTA”).  I’d never gotten used to the smell of diesel fumes, for all the years I sang with Grand Ole Opry star Whispering Bill Anderson, touring on his Silver Eagle bus.  But, that’s another story.

The thought of bus fumes this morning only added to my nausea, but going back to sleep was not an option. I had a job interview at Belmont College (now University), and I needed to work. The mirror told me it would take the “big guns” to make myself look at all presentable. “Nobody wants to hire an ex-roadie-turned-Jesus-freak, anyway!” I whimpered. Numerous job applications had turned up nothing solid. No one seemed to understand, my life had changed so much and I didn’t plan to head out on the next show bus.

But, the days had dragged on, and my faith was sagging for the first time since hearing God whisper, “You’re going home, Susan!”  How could I ever lose heart after that, I wondered? Still, here I was. Poor, sick pitiful me!

Prayers for Passengers

The interview at Belmont went well enough, as it turned out, and I got the job. But, my head had pounded as I left the campus that day and boarded the #2 Belmont bus headed downtown. The familiar publishing houses and recording studios flashed by the windows as the bus wound through Music Row toward Broadway, where I would have to wait for yet another bus to take me home.

Months before, I’d promised God that, as long as I had to ride the MTA, I would pray for every soul I rode with every day.  I had kept that promise, but this day I just wanted to be left alone.  I didn’t want to have to try to talk to others, even about Jesus, the love of my life; certain my witness would be less than inspiring. “Forgive me, Lord, guess I’m not a very good servant today!”  Self-pity had settled in like my cold.

Forgetting to ‘Entertain Strangers’

I was seated in one of those sideways seats upfront, behind the driver, when the bus came to a stop and an elderly black woman got on. Toting a couple of large plastic bags, she quickly flopped all of herself and her treasures onto the seat right beside me.  Only four or five other people were scattered about the bus and, “She has to sit down right next to me,” I thought. “I’ll pray for her, Lord, but please don’t ask me to talk to anybody today.”

The old woman’s chocolate eyes sparkled and smiled, almost as broadly as the toothy grin that exaggerated her otherwise small, weather-worn face.  “What does she have to be so joyful about?” I groused silently behind a token smile. Before long, I would have the answer.

I couldn’t help but notice, she wore several layers of old clothes, likely her entire wardrobe. Buttons strained to hold multiple sweaters together.  Nothing matched anything else; from the brown knit hat that covered most of her salt and pepper hair, to the out-sized granny shoes on her feet. It was all I could do not to laugh, despite my resolve to bask in a pity party. But that, I tried reminding myself, was not what my new life was about at all!

Stranger than Imagined

“Okay, Lord,” I finally yielded, “If you want me to tell her about your Son, you have to give me an opening!”

Surprisingly, SHE spoke first.

She was full of information about the history of “Music City.”  Her thick brown knee socks sagged annoyingly, I thought. But, it only allowed her constantly animated hands one more lively gesture, as she gave the socks an occasional tug. She talked about the weather and the city’s plans to turn the old Union Station Depot on Broadway into a “fancy” hotel.

Surely, I thought, she would take a breath and I would be able to say something. Feebly, I tried to jump in a time or two, but I guess the most I was ever able to say was, “Well, I…” or “Yes, but…,” and she was off, onto another subject.

Don’t get me wrong, she certainly wasn’t boring or negative—in fact, she was downright funny! But, getting a word in edgewise, I decided, would take a sure act of God.

Botched Assignment

Finally, the bus came to another stop and this irritatingly joyous—but “lost” I was afraid—“bag lady” jumped up, straightened her bundles, and prepared to get off the bus.

“Well,” she said, wrestling comically with her bulging load, “Nice talkin’ to ya!”

I smiled weakly and nodded, feeling like a complete failure for not being more forthright to tell her about Jesus. She shot one last oversized grin at me and, elbows high, hauled her bundles down the bus steps.

 “I blew it! I’m sorry, Lord,” I sulked, wishing I was home in bed. “Now she’ll probably never know You!” A sympathetic smile, if not a big LOL, must have filled the Lord’s face—no doubt shaking His head over my still infantile faith.

Half-way down the steps, that funny old woman turned and ambled nimbly back up toward me. Now, placing a dark, ancient hand on my knee and searching my eyes with a depth and compassion I hadn’t noticed before, she said, “Don’t ever stop talking about Him!”

Then she leaned in closer and said again… “Don’t you EVER stop talking about Him!”

Touched By An Angel

I must have turned angel-robe white! I hadn’t been able to say a word to the old “woman” about God, my faith, or even myself on that bus ride down Broadway.  I sat stunned as the bus door closed behind her, and she was gone. I mean, she was just gone! I looked both ways on the street. Gone!

It occurred to me, she hadn’t had those bundles in her hands when she stepped back up those stairs.  More amazing, I wasn’t feeling ill anymore either! A renewed joy started in my heart and crept up all over me as I realized what had just happened.

“Oh my gosh, Lord, that wonderful old street person was from You!” Tears flowed even as I wanted to laugh right out loud at God’s sense of humor and the method He’d used to lift my spirits. He had sent an unlikely messenger to encourage me that I was on the right track, even if it looked just plain “crazy” to the whole world.

I was more assured than ever that God’s word is true. Angels ARE real!  Sometimes they even ride the MTA!

For He shall give His angels charge over you, to keep you in all your ways …Psalm 91:11

 

[From Susan Beyer’s book, Above “Reality”: Where Miracles Happen and Healing Begins – Available at Amazon.com]

References above:  1 Hebrews 13:2,  2 Matthew 7:7-8, 3  Lamentations 3:22-23

Uncle Tom | An Unfortunate Myth

A big lie has been perpetuated for more than a century, about the character of a character known as “Uncle Tom!” I hope to set the record straight here, and that many will choose to learn the truth, by reading one of the greatest and most controversial books in American history.

Uncle Tom’s Cabin, a book by Harriet Beecher Stowe (1852), meant to expose the hideous practice of SLAVERY, for what it was. However, although an instant best-seller, the book soon met with enormous opposition, that caused many to believe and spread an unfortunate myth, and to ignore truths that might have helped heal a divided nation, short of a deadly Civil War.

“He’s just an Uncle Tom!”

Many African Americans still use that misnomer to shame other black people they think of as “weak, go-along” sorts—“sell-outs to white masters.” But, why defame “Uncle Tom?”  Where did that comparison come from, about a character I’ve come to admire as one of the greatest men ever written about—fictional or real?

Black slaves, likely unable to read Stowe’s stunning book back then, or barely even to speak English, no doubt believed the propaganda of the book’s CRITICS, who portrayed Uncle Tom as a traitor to the black race. Yes, an unfortunate myth!

Who Was “Uncle Tom”?

Uncle Tom’s Cabin  describes its main character as a gentle, amiable black slave named Tom—a man of deep faith, loyalty and integrity. A victim of a cruel injustice in those times, Tom worked hard to keep his family together; not sold off separately, like chattel to the highest bidder. A man of his word, Tom obeyed his “owner” so long as the requirements did not compromise his faith and moral convictions. Closer examination shows the character as, I would say, a powerful role model for black people and others alike, even today. But, those who profited by the slave trade then wouldn’t have wanted THAT to get around. Stowe’s book posed a threat!

Ultimately, Tom chooses to die at the hands of a vicious slave master named Simon Legree, rather than betray two slave women who had escaped. In that, “Uncle Tom” proved one of the most Christ-like characters ever to grace the printed page. Uncle Tom exhibited colossal courage and character, as he laid down his life, rather than betray others!

The Bible says, Scarcely for a righteous man will one die… but God demonstrated His own love toward us, in that while we were still slaves to sin, Christ died for us.” [Romans 5:7-8]

Moving South

In 1977, I moved with my three children to Nashville, Tennessee, and have since learned much about the south and its history. My Louisiana-born husband Philip and I love to read historical and other thought-provoking books together. A few years ago, we decided to tackle a rather large volume, titled Uncle Tom’s Cabin.  As a southerner, and “baby boomer,” Philip remembers some of the harsh realities of bigotry that lingered long into the 20th century. For my part, originally from California, much of my life was relatively untouched by the true story of slavery in America.  However, my husband and I agree, slavery was an ugly blight on our nation—one never to be repeated!

Sadly, I realize now, many black people believe they are still victims of “white supremacy.” Yet, I believe the great majority of our society recognizes the equality and worth of all humans; all races. Many black Americans have risen to high and influential positions in our nation over the past decades; in the military, as high-ranking statesmen and women, as mayors of major cities; even as president of the United States. Many excel in business, medicine, science, media and journalism; in the arts, sports, and in academia, etc.

Are all of THOSE “Uncle Toms”?

I like to believe, rather, they have courageously overcome any victim-mentality passed on to them by more cynical blacks, or purposeful/political race-baiters?  Thankfully, many seem to have been able to look past the ignorance of any lingering prejudices in our society, and to make their way.

Uncle Tom’s Cabin | The Controversy

With Uncle Tom’s Cabin published in 1852, abolitionists and Northerners generally praised Harriet Beecher Stowe’s fictionalized, albeit candid depiction of the inhumane and often gruesome nature of the slave trade, and they were quick to confirm the truths Stowe had written about.  

On the other side, PRO-SLAVERY advocates claimed that Stowe was “misrepresenting slavery and exaggerating the cruelty of the institution.” They said her book was “a distortion of the facts and a mutilation of the records, for the sake of giving substance to a scandalous fancy.” Interestingly, they didn’t accuse her of using false documentation. Rather, they claimed that, “The examples Stowe provided are the most extreme instances, meant to give the worst possible impression of the institution of slavery, and of the south.”

Nicer Slave Owners?

Were there those wealthy land owners who took in slaves to keep them from the auction blocks that demoralized many blacks for profit then? I suspect there were. I’ve found southerners to be, generally, kind, God-fearing and hospitable. I would hate to think that back then they were overcome by some collective evil spirit void of compassion for those black immigrants. But, how many, otherwise good, people in Germany looked the other way when the Nazis victimized the Jews during WW2?

Slavery is a monstrous thing, and Harriet Beecher Stowe was courageous and right to expose it as she did!

Other pro-slavery reaction to Stowe’s writing was more a critique of her character, than a critique of the work itself. One review, by George Holmes, questioned Stowe’s writing of the truth as a “lack of decency,” portraying “scenes of license and impurity, and ideas of loathsome depravity.” Holmes appealed to women, especially southern women, NOT to read Stowe’s writings.  History proves that the so-called “decency” of many of those women and men of the time turned its back on other human beings who truly suffered, often the cruelest enslavement.

A Legitimate, Yet Unrecognized Hero

It seems there has always been, and may always be, those who would demean, oppress, enslave, even destroy others to further their own ambitions. Corrie ten Boom met head-on with that in her time!

On the other hand, I believe the power mongers of our world, and any of us, could learn much from the character of an “Uncle Tom.” Compassion for other human beings, as Jesus showed us during his time on earth, is what brings greatness to a person or a people. Tragically, those such as Adolph Hitler, the fictional Simon Legree character, and other Judases, are remembered only with disdain, if at all.

I highly recommend that everyone read “Uncle Tom’s Cabin”—especially black Americans. The truth is a great healer—our nation longs for it!